bonfire and mist
how to put together sun and moon
but here two suns, like one
chase across the sky
and one is day and one is night
when I walk, I never know
is it it or is it it
when I sleep I never wake
and if I look I see
white skies and mist
and distant peaks
and their ice
strange, here winds don‘t blow
and fire burns profondo red
and transparent;
smoke invisible
and crack of twigs like
kaleidoscope
perturbs my sight
I look at them unmoved
I sit on beach and watch
the foam
feet deep in sand
wet
water climbs, retreats...
bent, I touch, I hear
I sing
salamander comes
salamander whispers in my ear
his eyes‘ lustre‘s black and
blue
matching mine
magic bursts and sprays my
loneliness, paleness
hum and tune
is this world alive
I don‘t ask for miracles.
I unusually slow -
heart is dead.
it is nothingness:
I inhale the scent
deep, in flesh
the river flows, somewhere
stones protrude
I have to split
these two:
I am now in different mood
how it moved?
I stood
I am bigger than this world
bitter clarions cry
but I hush
not my word was heard
no one heard
(that I want night)
I want dripping blood
and in night I want
to see the stars
rrrrram!
a complete change, and cold
breeze, and I want the heat
it hides
somewhere, around
I feel with my hands
I go out
snowflakes on the edge
on stilleto edge
the mist still there
and no phantasy to smile
it means death
it means near-distance
it means kwartz
pure light
abysses! but nowhere to fall
it dissipates
I think what I see
and it makes me bow
the turmoil is over, the song of the world
who is to speak when there‘s no I
if I say I
do I escape from
loneliness
if I say you
do you escape
up in the sky two suns sneak
one is day the other night
mist twirls
lightnings hit
I wake up from the dream
I see myself asleep
frog krrrrak!
it heaves
it was born yesterday
and it‘s big
too old, I say
I go
there is eye in the sky
it was also seen
escape, escape from this
but nothing shakes
trees hower
moss sticks
I can‘t
dream no dream
like whole universe in one
one dream in the sky
another in the sky
just how long it takes
everyone to die
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